Thursday, April 24, 2008

Sediments

Sometime I feel like I'm being slowly chiseled away.


I try and get things fixed but there is only so much that I can do. I feel like I'm just saying the same things over and over. I usually try and look at things in a bigger picture and I know that if things continue like this I'll be chiseled away into nothing. I hate it. I want it fixed, because I know the process in myself when it isn't.

I'm at a loss for what to do.  


Wednesday, April 16, 2008

Morag


This is Morag. She thinks I don't love her, so I dedicate this blog to her in hopes that she will see how much I do care.

She is super talented and wrote the play that I was just in. She writes lots of plays, one could call her a playwright. She has been the greatest of friends and is always there to hear me ramble on about something. She has a handsome husband, Mitch and a lovely doggie named Dash, who she always has a picture of, on her phone.

She likes to laugh and have fun all the time. She is a joy to be around. :) She shops at Nordstrom's and likes to buy new jeans and shoes. She has a boob hole. She says lots of witty things.

I have a headache otherwise I would write lots more about this lovely friend of mine.

I love Morag, and so should you!

Sunday, April 13, 2008

The things that I've done...and the things I should be doing.

Only two more days of school (+ one week of finals)!! I am stressed, but really excited at the prospect of not having to be on such a time constraint.

I went to a study session (where I brilliantly didn't bring any writing utensils-awesome) and then spent the rest of the day/night at the library trying to catch up on everything that I've been putting off because of the show.

The rest of Roofsliding went well, it ended last weekend. It's kind of weird, putting all of that time and effort into something and then it just ending. We all tore down the huge set together- it went down so fast. I wanted to keep something from the set, but I'm trying not to be such a pack rat. I got an amazing amount of wonderful feedback from the show. I'm really excited that so many people enjoyed the acting. It makes me feel pretty great, because lot of blood, sweat and tears went into it.

Val and Tim came down to see the show March 27th. It was a bit stressful for them, as their tire blew out a little over halfway here and I didn't know if they were going to make it. They did and we all went out for some mediocre food afterwards. I'm thankful to have such wonderful support. Val hasn't missed a performance yet.

My birthday was pretty awesome, I had school and the show but I have good friends, so it wasn't as bad as I was anticipating. Kris sent me a large bouquet of my favorite flowers-lilies-they were so beautiful. They made the house smell so lovely and they definitely made me happy every time I saw them.

My parents came to see the two last shows. They seemed to really like it. They bought me flowers as well and so I had the best smelling house for miles :) I didn't get to spend as much quality time with them as I had hoped. I get kind of weird about them leaving. I have huge issues with death and loss, etc. I am hoping to spend a few weeks down in Vegas over the summer; after I graduate, at least right now, I'm anticipating returning there for a little bit. Kris and his band came through on Thursday, the night before closing and that was fun/a little stressful at times. Kris was really sick, my parents took him to the urgent care place because he was really really bad. I tried to take care of him the best I could, but he needed medicine ASAP! Turns out he has an pneumonia :( I felt kind of helpless, and the fact that I only got see him for one night didn't make it better. He's slowly getting better and started work again a couple of days ago. A pneumonia isn't something play around with, that is for sure. I'm positive that it he had stayed on tour he would have not been so lucky.

Shortly after Kris left, I got sick myself. I'm not really sure what it is that I have, but as soon as I started feeling something, I began drinking water like you would not believe. It helped, but each day something else starts hurting. Amidst all of this I got pink eye and have had to wear my glasses more than I even have wanted to. They are cute, but the prescription I can tell is a bit off from my contacts so I have been getting pretty intense headaches, to top everything off. I can't understand how I got sick, I'm a moderate germ-a-phob (I'm the type of person to turn the sink off with a paper towel and open the door with a paper towel, etc). I'm clean, very clean, but I think my immune system most have been getting down from the lack of sleep and stomach/digestive issues that have been ensuing as of the past couple of months.

I have a lot to take care of in the last couple of days for school. I've got lots to read, lots to write, and lots to memorize. I'm not too confident in myself for some of the GE finals, but I'm going to do my best and hope that I won't have to retake anything. Perfection has been such a huge part of my life, but I think this is a great time to let it go. It's going to be painful, but I've had a jam packed year and I'm lucky to be getting out alive.

Monday, April 7, 2008

blah.

I feel unheard.

Saturday, April 5, 2008

It hurts me

I'm getting sick. I have so much to say. I tired. My head hurts, maybe later I can be intellectual with my words. Probably not, but maybe.