Opposite planets...

I feel like crying right now. I hate getting into arguments. It's the worst thing.

Sometimes I feel really misunderstood. I know that there are always two things going on and anyone who has a brain can think about things from another person's perspective, but while you're in the moment, there seems to be a conscious choice to focus on your own perspective, because after all that is the reason for which you are arguing. I know that sometimes I can say things that are hurtful or might not even be true in the moment, but I get angry when I don't feel like I'm being heard.

I don't like confrontations. I like getting things solved and moving on with life. I have a hard time concentrating on anything else if things are unsettled between me and someone I love and care about. I don't know if it is a fault, or if it's something else, but it paralyzes me. Everyone gets into arguments, I just like solving them because I think life is too short and why waste time feeling like this when things can just be reconciled. I'm tired and I have a lot that I need to get done. I just wanted to talk to him because he makes my perspective wider and helps me feel better about things. It doesn't seem like a big deal, but it matters immensely to me.

The reaction was bad, but the concern was genuine. Now what do I do?