Waving the White Flag...Lessons on Surrendering

I always feel that when one thing goes wrong more things are bound to follow. I'm not the best at handling situations that constantly develop and add on and on and on to each other; I get overwhelmed easily and often times I just hold up the white flag and want to give up and surrender to whatever it is that comes my way. I cringe at the possibility of this, but perhaps I'm a defeatist in one way for another. I feel like my whole life I've been struggling against something and perhaps I just don't feel like doing it anymore. It does take a lot of energy and quite frankly, I don't feel like I have a lot of that left.



I'm glad that I have Kris, he makes me feel like whatever it is that is happening, we can get through it. He takes my burdens on him and only wants to see me be happy. I always feel reluctant to allow him to help me and I don't know why. I always feel bad when I have to ask for help or support even though I probably need it more often then I would ever like to admit.


I don't even want to think of where to start. I just want to...not have to worry or stress. I wish it was all easier.