An unwelcomed visitor

So. I was laying down in bed and I heard the sound of the screen on a window moving. I wake up and there is a shadow of someone coming into my room (in Vegas) I start to get scared and jump up on my bed as he fully enters into the room and I catch a glimpse of his face. He's white, young, dressed kind of like a basketball jock, in his mid to late twenties. I start to scream as he grabs me but nothing comes out of my mouth. It's like I'm hoarse. I try screaming again, nothing comes out, I start to freak out. I gasp and wake up in real life.

This is a problem for several reasons. One-I already have a hard time dealing with murder/rape/violence/kidnappings, etc. I can't deal with them. The thought of dieing by those means occupies my mind rather frequently. Two-once these images and ideas come to my mind they are hard for me to let go of. I sat up the rest of the morning (I woke up around 5 something in the morning) thinking about what I would do to get away from this guy if it had really happened, and then getting upset when I realize that it would be nigh impossible to do so if he had a gun, knife, or multiple people helping him. Then I thought about what kind of physical defense I could use, and that got me upset again when my mind reminded me that men are much stronger then women (esp. in upper body strength) and that even if I try my hardest the chances of me getting away are pretty slim. Then these scenes keep playing in my mind. Well, what if my Dad was home...he's getting older, what if the man hurts my Dad. What if my Mom comes to help? I don't want her to be hurt. What do I do? All the while I'm consciously telling myself to think of happy things, ask someone up above to help to clear these thoughts, etc, etc. Some images of autumn trees come to mind, the beach, wind blowing, and then my mind takes a turn back and the horrible thoughts continue.

Needless to say I didn't sleep much. I went on my computer and looked at some dream dictionaries online, one of them said that the dream was telling me I need to watch out because something bad is going to happen, and its my subconscious telling me. So, obviously THAT made me feel better :/ I got off the computer and tried to sleep, but I just laid there and watched the time pass.


Now I'm kind of in a bad mood. Not meaning to be, but finding it hard to recuperate from that experience. I don't know what the deal is. I haven't been abused ever or had anything traumatic happen that deals with that kind of violence. Why do I have such a hard time with those things? Sometimes I feel like I'm crazy with the things my mind congers. I bet it will become worse when I'm older and have a husband and children to worry about. I'm going to see what I can do about it. It bothers me.